i'm really happy. really, i am. i know how much i mean to you and all. everything's going fine. i know we're completely set, but i HONESTLY hate how SHE BLATANTLY FLIRTS with you on your FB wall. even if it's "for fun" and how she's actually in love with your brother (and vice versa) and this is her way of being "cool" and "tight" with the family, i really really really don't like it.


bleurgh.

Intimate-family-wedding-celebratory dinner. Everyone was with their partners. So... if T's Daddy doesn't figure out how I fit into the whole picture... then his position as an editor isn't really quite befitting is it? I went through the whole stage of anxiety, fear and inadequacies... but it was all good. No major hiccups. Thank God.


We tried to do the whole "let's-not-be-crazy-and-meet-everyday" sorta thing... but failing. Miserably. I'm a tad tired of meeting up with most of T's friends... so she'll be meeting the boys soon enough when John comes back, and Van and the other girls. :) Soon!


T's friendo- G- came up to me after dinner last night and pulled me aside. *gulp* Then she whispers...

"You know everytime I see you and T together... I've never seen T so happy. I think T really really likes you.".


That made my day. :)

i'm happy. :)


things are going well so far. so... *fingers crossed* family and friendos seem to approve of me so far. so... that's also a good sign, no?

i'm just scared that we might be rushing things a tad too fast- but it doesn't feel that way. i have tons of work to do- but well, one step at a time.


i'm really... quite the happy bunny.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh. TEN DAYS! :D



what to wear? what to wear? what to wear? hahahahahaha/

(on being unable to sleep recently..)

naddy.35 says:
then i toss and turn!
so irritating
T says:
poor thing, you just need some one to cuddle you to sleeeeep
naddy.35 says:
you're not here!
what am i suppose to do!
T says:
cuddle yourself
naddy.35 says:
find a cuddle buddy?!
ahaha
FIND A CB
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
T says:
ya! find a CB!
hahahahhahaha
a cbcb
just try to sleep ok?
please?

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(on the no. of days till i get there)

T says:
BOOMS!
smoo is here!
put your hands up in the air
naddy.34 says:
BOOM BOOOM BOOOM BOOOM
I WANT YOU IN MY ROOM
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
T says:
and wave them like u just don't careeeeeee
LET'S SPEND THE NIGHT TOGETHER
NOW UNTIL FOREVERRRRRRRR
HAHAHAHAHHAAH
naddy.34 says:
from now until forever
hahahaha
T says:
why are u so insane??
i like.
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and a whole multitude of other retarded, random conversations, taken out of context. t-minus 34 days! :)

It's not like I choose to fall sick- I just do.


Fucking migraine last night left me hurling into the toilet bowl for a good portion of the night. Uggghhhh. The best part is, I think I got the migraine in the middle of one my classes. Geez. Classes at that institution are bad for my health. Popped some synflex (note to self) and attempted to ignore that tightening pressure on the left side of my head. Thankfully, I managed to get at least 7 hours of sleep. However, this means that I did not do any work at all last night- a wasted day. Considering the surge of deadlines due, I am basically screwed. *breathe*

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My back has been killing me. I need a proper thai massage. Sponsored trip to BKK, anyone?

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T's exes are gorgeous... it's insane I tell you. One's a strikingly GORGEOUS Indian girl with prestigious accolades of being on the dean's list for a design school, a go-getter basically. I know this is silly but I feel that T traded down for me. :(

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As much as deadlines are drawing near, I realise that there is MORE to life than deadlines. My weekends are precious and Saturday has basically been re-routed to family + friends quality time. And I really shouldn't feel guilty for making it so.

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I have an offer to write a lifestyle article for a new magazine. I'm excited but scared as well - what if I'm not good enough? Publishing was something I always had an eye on. Ever since I was kid, and my dad working in Times Publishing- books were things that I was surrounded by- and loved. I'm not out to write the next Singapore novel or anything. I just want to remember what it was like to write about things you love, without crazy amount of references and evidence.

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A pair so pretty,
I don't think I could come close
to filling them up.

(For some reason, those words rang through my head the entire night when I was trying to sleep)

You know you're completely whipped when you're going miserable for the 3 days you don't get to talk to your partner. Stupid commercialization conference. Rawr. However,  it's quality and not quantity time... at least that's what I keep telling myself. An hour phone call last night, and T wishing my mom Hari Raya was really a sweet thing indeed. And mom seemed amused. Even though mom doesn't know the nature of this relationship yet, at least she's not judging her on the way T looks and all. :)



Countdown: 2 months and 7 days!

Here I go again...


I wish I wasn't like this, but I am.


Thank God for all the assignments that are coming hard and fast- at least it'll stop my mind from wandering too far into the future.


On a related note to a friend's blog entry here- I don't know if I could really be friends with a bf's/gf's ex. Insecurities are a bitch love, and I'm afraid to say but we've all got a whole baggage full of them.


I'm trying to live by a friend's mantra- "I've enough friends, I don't need to make any more friends".

Still doesn't stop your fears and insecurities though. Especially when they still joke about being husband and wife. How depresssssing.

crap.


falling. again.